I Don't Know What To Do Or Say To You

This broken mess held together
With the one strand you pulled away
Deafened by the same noise

How much pain can my body take
I can't live without my life
But you can have this heart to break

Beyond my struggled hurt thinking
There's so much chaos in the room
I hear nothing but you breathing

Something inside me still wants to know
All that I want and all that I have 
You are wanting me to let go.


I think about you all the time.
Even when we went a couple years with out talking.
Wishing things were good for us and not slime.
My thoughts are always filled about you.
Then the day came when you talked to me.
I'm still trying to wrap my mind around it. 
I thought you would never speak to me again
I write to you all the time but when I the time came to send
I got scared and tried to pretend.
You no longer existed.
Then you messaged me and my heart was so sore and torn.
I didn't know what to do or say anymore.
I'm in a relationship and you come to me out of the blue and my emotions are all over the place now I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO OR SAY!