When you think of life

For privacy we will call the people i live with;
My boyfriend= Derek
My oldest= Cory
My youngest= James
Boyfriends cousin= Dustin

When you think of life, do you think where you will be in the next 10 years? Or maybe, who will you be for the actions you make? I think about that all the time. I think in 10 years I will be the same person I've always been. The only thing that will be different is I will be 10 years older and wiser. When you're younger, you think you will get to goof off all the time, no responsibilities, or cares, no expectations, but as you get older you come to realize there will always be responsibilities and expectations. Some times even at a young age you have to learn that the world isn't handed to you. There will be things that you will have to deal with.


I have my youngest full time. I do not work, but I learn that ever moment I get with my youngest is a beautiful time. I watch him grow and learn. "Derek" is amazing with "James". Derek is not the biologic father of my two boys, but James loves Derek as if he is his son. Derek loves James as if he's his daddy. They laugh and play and when James does do something wrong Derek does punish him, but James always knows Derek loves him.


When I was growing up, I had to learn about sadness, death and un-love. As an adult I've learned that with all the sadness, death and un-love, that I will teach my kids the way life is and how it will sometimes sad and painful but there are good things to come out of life. I'll teach them that with time and hard work they can be whatever they want to be.

"Dustin" is like a close uncle to James. Even though he's Derek's cousin. Dustin plays with James, teaches him how to skateboard, and spends time with him. Derek and Dustin are the biggest impacts at home for James.When Cory comes home I know Derek and Dustin will be doing the same for him as well.


I've learned a lot through out the years, but the one thing I'm still learning is that, home is where ever you make it as long as you have good people in your life and love and support from others. A lot of people take that for granted and some still act like a child, because they aren't ready to face reality and the real world. It's okay to be a child sometimes, but not all the time.

We are adults now and adults need to buckle down and face situations head on and face facts that we are not 10 years old now we are in our 20's and have kids and there is no time to play games all the time. We need to provide for our families and put our feet down when times get hard. Life is not easy, it's not fair and it's not always fun.

When I think about life this is what I think about all the time. Thank you.